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8 Rules for Angsty Saturdays

8 Rules for Angsty Saturdays

Rule #1. When you start to feel a chasm of hopelessness open just below your heart, but above the pit of your stomach, turn off the Internet. Rule #2. Never apologize for eating mac n cheese. Rule #3. Hydrate. Rule #4. Do something. Empty the dishwasher or do laundry or something. Enjoy the tiny blossom […]

Begin

Begin

When you decide to begin, there are a few things you will need: Paper is essential. Batteries die and screens freeze, but paper is eternal — to a point. Everything can be typed up later — this is your immortality after all. A pen. Turn off your cell phone. Don’t just put it on vibrate, […]

Communication Disease

Communication Disease

What is communication anyway? It’s certainly not a direct line From my mouth to your ears. If your eyes wander And your heart is closed like iron. And a feeling of unease is Communicated through the air like disease. I cough up disdain; You breathe in mistrust.

My message to the world:

My message to the world:

LOVE EVERYONE. But know what love is. Know that love is not joy. Love is not sex. Love is not patronizing. Love is not easy. Love is a choice. Maybe sometimes you and the one you love have built something, cared for it, nurtured it, dusted off its smooth hard surfaces, opened its cupboards and […]

Addiction

Addiction

It’s not just about the caffeine. I can almost believe that I don’t even really need it to get going in the morning. I don’t, really. I wake up pretty bright-eyed. I get plenty of sleep. It’s not just about the routine, although that is a big part of it. The feel of the kettle […]