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8 Rules for Angsty Saturdays

8 Rules for Angsty Saturdays

Rule #1. When you start to feel a chasm of hopelessness open just below your heart, but above the pit of your stomach, turn off the Internet. Rule #2. Never apologize for eating mac n cheese. Rule #3. Hydrate. Rule #4. Do something. Empty the dishwasher or do laundry or something. Enjoy the tiny blossom […]

Addiction

Addiction

It’s not just about the caffeine. I can almost believe that I don’t even really need it to get going in the morning. I don’t, really. I wake up pretty bright-eyed. I get plenty of sleep. It’s not just about the routine, although that is a big part of it. The feel of the kettle […]

The Serenity of Anxiety

The Serenity of Anxiety

I leave for Moscow tomorrow. On a train. The only other time I’ve been on a train in Russia, my ticket was bought and my hand held by my study abroad program directors. Minor freak out about my debit card not working at the ATM averted when I got home and checked online, to realize […]